Friday, March 22, 2013

Pathetic and embarrassed

That is how I feel. March 20 was one of the happiest days of my life, yet the days following March 20 have been one of the saddest. First came joy, excitement. Then it hit me: what I'd been looking forward to would never come true. Just because I am naive. He knows that, it makes him laugh and he doesn't care that is all I think about.
This war has been the most difficult experience in my life so far. My opponent is a smart person, probably much smarter and craftier than me. I've lost this war, I admit it. I've made mistakes.
However, this, too, will pass.
One day, I will experience joy again. One day, I will be loved by a better person. One day, he'll feel pathetic and embarrassed.

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

عيد ميلاد سعيد!

March 6 is the beginning of spring. It is the day the snow melts, the sun shines brighter, the wind becomes warm.

But to me, all of the above is not as important as this: it is the day you were born. My sister, my soulmate, my friend. It may seem like I told you everything about my love for you, but no, words are never enough. In fact, words are not even needed, you know that.

Honey, I am so sorry for not being there for you right now. I apologize for making you miss me. I didn't want to. It's just that I am hella busy now and I feel huge pressure with the university, work, friends, plans, etc.

But no way I'm gonna ever forget about you.

I think of you every day. I pray for you every day. You are with me. I am with you. Always.

Be happy on your birthday, dear. Be happy every day of your life.